This is going to be a short post. It's the night before school starts (PIONEER School that is) and I need to make sure my bag is packed, clothes are ready and I need to get a good nights sleep but before I do I just have to give you the re cap of yesterdays assembly.
I had the privlage of being interviewd by the Bethel Representative Bro Darren Janes during his concluding talk - "Let the Power of God’s Word Keep Transforming You". I think I did ok, I havent even seen the video that Shannon took of it. Anyway Most of you have had your SAD so I dont think I'm spoiling anything so here are the 4 questions asked and my responses.
How would you describe your life before learning God’s Word?
I grew up in a divided home My father was a strict Catholic who was very proud man and very opposed, my mum had been in active for most of my adolecent and teenage years. After experiencing a number of tumoultous events during my life I became very angry and rebelious and moved out of home at 18. I soon fell into a life of drugs and partying .
I trusted know one. If any one was your friend it was beacuse you had money or drugs. Then one night I sat down and felt destitute I prayed to Jehovah and begged that if he was real, to help as I had no idea how to get out of where I was.
A few nights later 2 sister’s engaged in evening witnessing, knocked on my door, it was their last door for the evening. I explained my situation and I they read a scripture and a bible study was started.
As you gained greater knowledge of God’s Word, what bible teaching or verse had an impact on you?
One of the scriptures they read was Proverbs 3:5,6 . It appealed because my life was in confusion, I wanted a way out. Jehovah was promising to make my paths straight.
A few years later I experienced more heartache when my husband left us when my youngest was 6 months old. The feelings of mistrust, anger and resentment came back I was hosptialized after suffering post traumatic stress disorder and severe deppression. I was left disalussioned again and left the truth,.
I had almost given up hope. I felt I was never going to good enough for Jehovah.
I analysed that scripture Proverbs 3:5,6 - Trust was missing - but how do you learn to trust?
I knew I couldnt lean on my own understanding.
What changes did you make as a result of being stired by that bible verse?
There have been many times I have read and reread that scripture - To remind my self that no matter what experience I have had or what I have been through never to think “ I can go this one alone”
Around the time the video ‘Good News To Every Nation, Tribe, and Tongue that the CO showed us I started reassing my goals with the thought of pioneering as this had been a goal I had when I was first baptized.
From any persons standpoint there was no way I could pioneer. And no one would hold it against me, after all I had my responsibilities as a wife and mother of 4, health issues and my mum with early stages of alzheimers - Impossible!
I knew I had trust but it has a limit right? - Wrong I found there is no limit to how much we can trust Jehovah. I was viewing it in a fleshly sense not from Jehovah’s stand point ...in another words I was leaning on my own understanding.
I re read that scripture this time with another scripture Luke 18:27
“ The things impossible with men are possible with God.”
It made me realise whatever I faced whether perceived or real NOTHING is impossible for Jehovah, especially if it is in line with his will as stated in Mathew 6:33,34
That was the answer to my prayers. After auxillary pioneering for 6 months I took the plunge and started regular pioneering in September 2013.
What blessing have you experienced as a result?
I have found the more I trust Jehovah the more he pleasantly surprises me. I find myself thanking him more often than asking, and when I do its for guidance BEFORE making a decision.
I also enjoy being continually taught by Jehovah, I feel I started pioneering to teach others but I have found that Jehovah is the one finishing my training and teaching me
In addition I enjoy a happy family life, our 2 eldest sons are baptized with one taking up the fulltime service too.
Although I do still suffer from depression and mood swings from time to time, I find it no longer debilitates me as it once did. If fact pioneering has made a much happier and peaceful person.
I also have the privlage of attending pioneer school next week! YAY!!!
Being interviewed by Bethel Representative Bro Darren Janes
